Though we with NLD have some “different” social communication issues (i.e., social skills are more stressful and tough for us to execute), we still wish for relationships. I personally am reserved around people I don’t know, more relaxed around close friends, and prone to swearing around my family.
Growing up, I had an outgoing personality at home and a super-quiet one at school. In college and beyond, those extremes became less so. I’ve increased the issues I keep to myself, but also been able to enjoy closer friendships. Both results happened because a wonderful person taught me the very important skill of refining my boundaries.
As a high school freshman, I didn’t know how I could make it through three more years. I left during my sophomore year and did not return until the second semester of my senior year. During that time I took some community college classes and suffered from serious depression. I also developed PTSD. I’ll describe those years in future postings.