I enjoy not being in a relationship, but I also miss not having a person to share an affectionate bond with. Sometimes I think people think that we with NLD (and related conditions) are not interested in relationships, and it’s not true. We want to explore relationships. In my case, I need a large amount of alone time, but I enjoy my friends. I particularly love writing to them, and reading their delightful paragraphs that they send in return. I feel from writing what someone without an LD like this might feel from a conversation. And writing is a wonderful conversation. Yet on holidays, I wish I had a person with me to help me survive family gatherings. It could be a sister, best friend, or boyfriend–it doesn’t matter. Just so I would register as semi-normal on the days that the normal-police come out in great volume. If you’ve ever tried being single at a family gathering, it’s an emotional challenge. I am without children, but I have a dog. I find my dog relentless, so I’m not sure I could deal with a child, unless I had an SO who was understanding of my NLD issues. Yet I love seeing happy kids. And I’d be sad if I never get to at least be an aunt. I wonder, though, about our society finding fault against socially-awkward mothers. I think it does. My socially-challenged mom got brushed aside. She is very avoidant, and doesn’t like kids, though.
27 and Single