So right now, like many people, the economic crash has really limited my job prospects, and forced me to postpone some of my goals, hopes, and dreams. The dream, for instance, to live on my own. Before my diagnosis, NLD (and depression) took about six years of my life, where I lived in reduced capacity to enjoy life or be productive. I currently work in two jobs, neither of which captures my strengths or talents. I’m deeply grateful for any paid work, but have always believed a job should both help others and be intellectual.
Due to the economy and paying for NLD- and/or depression-related mistakes, I do not yet make enough to live alone. I’m now stuck living with someone who doesn’t work, is often messy, has addiction problems, and isn’t looking for work. I feel anguish when I’m home, and then beat myself up, figuring if I didn’t have NLD, maybe I’d be on my own. I carry stress in my back muscles, and feel disappointment that college didn’t bring the independence I planned for. I’m doing the best I can, but I want much more from life, so I try to dream each day about my goals. I have many.